Perfect- Alanis

This song made me cry so HARD when I first heard it. My parents were just like this, without really being conscious of it... the way they were raised (abusive parents also) and their Mormon faith made them feel like they were doing a good job, but they've done lasting damage to myself and my siblings.

I've worked hard on moving past all of that, and I'm doing a pretty good job of it.

I have serious issues with men because of the way I was treated by my father and other men in the church...

But I'm past that when I get treated fairly. I can think rationally for myself, an achievement I only obtained 3 years ago. I'm an anti-Christian, anti-Mormon, reverse racist (I'm white), feminist (in a fair way), rational, logical, humanistic, nuts-and-bolts kind of thinker. I love chess because it helps me strengthen my problem solving skills.

But I have a huge amount of anger for people who don't treat others fairly. That usually gets aimed toward men who are disenfranchising women, even just with their language. It's a man's world, and if they put women down enough, then both sides get disenfranchised. It's hard to stand by and watch that sort of thing happen. But I can't let it compromise my own happiness, so I have to pick my battles. My father is one thing. A random stranger is meaningless.



Sometimes is never quite enough
If you're flawless, then you'll win my love
Don't forget to win first place
Don't forget to keep that smile on your face
Be a good boy
Try a little harder
You've got to measure up
And make me prouder
How long before you screw it up
How many times do I have to tell you to hurry up
With everything I do for you
The least you can do is keep quiet
Be a good girl
You've gotta try a little harder
That simply wasn't good enough
To make us proud
I'll live for you
I'll make you what I never was
If you're the best, then maybe so am I
Compared to him compared to her
I'm doing this for your own damn good
You'll make up for what I blew
What's the problem ...... why are you crying
Be a good boy
Push a little farther now
That wasn't fast enough
To make us happy
We'll love you just the way you are if you're perfect