Healing

So I just bought the new Alanis album.

I love it.

And, you'll be glad to know that the songs that used to make me cry don't have that effect any longer. The past is staying in the past, the heart has finally healed, and a new year is taking up where the one before last scarred me.

I tend to be influenced by the year prior. Without fail, the past year will remind me what happened on that date and I am usually doomed to repeat those emotions.

So the multiple breakups and failed engagements that led to the demise of a single failed relationship had been plaguing me-- up til now.

Now the camera has refreshed, NOW the memories are not so fresh. The lessons have been learned and I am letting go with these songs -- enjoy.

I used to feel this way, and I finally can remember without feeling pain.

Madness


Torch


Simple Together


Not As We


And this one still makes me cry if I'm tired enough:

Goodbye My Lover

Married for reals!

Meet the new Mrs. Dennis!

New favorite song!

One day I'll find relief
I'll be arrived
And I'll be friend to my friends who know how to be friends
One day I'll be at peace
I'll be enlightened and I'll be married with children and maybe adopt
One day I will be healed
I will gather my wounds forge the end of tragic comedy

I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time of being forever incomplete

One day my mind will retreat
And I'll know God
And I'll be constantly one with her night dusk and day
One day I'll be secure
Like the women I see on their thirtieth anniversaries

I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time of being forever incomplete

Ever unfolding
Ever expanding
Ever adventurous
And torturous
And never done

One day I will speak freely
I'll be less afraid
And measured outside of my poems and lyrics and art
One day I will be faith-filled
I'll be trusting and spacious authentic and grounded and home

I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time of being forever incomplete